Monday, January 24, 2011

Bueller...Bueller...

I haven't been thirty-eight very long. Not even ten days, in fact, but I think I'm going to get along pretty well with this number. I think its a pretty good number. One that says, "Hey, I've been around for a while now. You might want to listen because I could have something to say about this." But it also says "Hey, I'm still young enough to have fun, make some risky decisions, take some chances." I like it this way. I still have time to do some of the stuff I wanted to do before I hit forty (which for whatever reason seemed like a reasonable goal age) but there is just enough pressure to keep me focused.

I like the fact that people usually can't guess my age and I like the way they sometimes ask to see my license as proof. I like the fact that some people consider me young enough to have "accomplished a lot at my age." Whatever that means. I also like the fact that for some reason, I really don't care as much what most people think. And I have chosen well enough to align myself with people whose opinions I greatly respect and who call me to be a better person.

I like the fact that I feel free to speak my mind, but have gained enough wisdom and discernment to not speak out unless I truly believe it matters and will make a situation better. Now that I think about it, this really goes with my previous point. I usually won't argue with people anymore simply because it really doesn't matter. I just need to be right a lot less than I used to. 

I like that I've learned to stop and smell the roses. And I appreciate the effort it takes to grow them as well. I really like the earth and I also appreciate it a lot more than I used to. Call me a hippy. I'll probably just agree.

I think I like most of all how I'm beginning to see myself. I'm learning to be a little kinder to myself. I don't go on diets anymore. I eat the ice cream--just not everyday. I sleep late if I need it and I don't clean as much as I used to. Life is too short. I let myself day dream and don't care that people think I'm a dreamer. I'm an optimist. There. I said it. I refuse to believe the worst even though I have witnessed some it. And I try to always be a witness to that which is True and Holy. I believe in miracles.

I like that I lived through the Eighties and can call on the wisdom of a John Hughes film to make a point when I need to. And I believe when it comes to words of wisdom, Ferris Bueller said it well: "Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it."

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